Fresh Cleaning

Took today to get my house ready for my new job. I mean I cleaned everything, blinds, windows, baseboards, under furniture, cleaned out closets, EVERYTHING! I leaving a clean slate. I meaning I am leaving my husband and two children here all day, everyday.... need I say more? I have informed my husband that I have had the house clean and dinner on the table every night through our entire 8 years of married life. (with exceptions of our once weekly eat out) That means through me working full time the first time while attending to his child in the afternoons and weekends, and then being pregnant for nine months and still working. That means through child number three's birth while caring for child one and two, every day caring for everyone, dinner and house still done. Um...am I making a point here?? I know I am a bit of a neat freak, but I just want things nice when I come home so I don't feel pressure to be up and doing things all evening, and visit with my kids. I am going to need some down time from this job. I am also going to miss my kids something AWFUL! I just don't know how to describe it, it feels like no one can care for them like me, even though Donny is a great dad, it's just not me. I know, I am SO type A.

YEAH! Good news Tuesday, I got a second call back from Jtv for host position!! That would be SOOOO great! It is so up my alley. Keeping fingers crossed.

Concerning mom and dad, still no word. They have not seen the kids in 3 weeks. "R" asked me today if we could just drive to the BP and wait and see if mommom would come. Made me almost cry. She said "I'm sure she misses me."

Donny took off to Greensboro to talk to more investors. Things are getting close to decision time again, and it is crazy. Let's just all pray this works. I would love to see his dream come to fruition.