Oh, I'm going out of my head....

We are now going out of our minds with wonder. We found out the top dog was in town yesterday and didn't end up calling Donny to meet after his meeting with TW...which leaves us in huge limbo. Is he too scared to tell Donny face to face that he is going to pass? TW said he would completely cut them off if they hired Donny and that has scared this guy to pieces. I hate wimps. Business is business-get over it!! I am sick, we didn't sleep at all last night. I mean we sat up and didn't rest til about 5 when we fell asleep til the kids woke me at 8. This is ruining our lives. I am scared about numerous things. Financial failure, starting over again from scratch, Donny and I have done this before,but not with 3 children. Just the thought of our dream dying is KILLING me. I can see why people jump off bridges over things like this, it is mind wrenching. I am terrified.